I deactivated my FaceBook account today. The system automatically prompts you to answer a series of questions as to why you’re leaving. I didn’t know what to say, except to the final question which digs further to know if you feel safe on the site, or if you’ve just outgrown social media. I selected the “This is temporary” excuse before hitting enter one last time. And just like that, my online life went to sleep.
I traveled to New Jersey earlier in the week to visit a dear friend and new mom. In between nursing her newborn we dropped all formalities and dove into what was bothering me as of late. I passionately spilled my guts to her; I touched on the pros and cons of my life, and how purposeful each one must surely be.
“Rachel, “I said, “I’m ready. For more.”
She nodded, and I knew she understood. So we changed subjects for a short while longer until she went up to her room to nap, and I typed one-handed emails ever so softly with a sleeping child tucked in my arms.
I returned to New York City without my iphone and spent the next five days being unable to connect to anyone by phone or text. And the same goes for online communities. You feel strange at first, almost invisible. But then it sinks in that there is a lot of life to live offline.
And when the feeling is done sinking, and has settled, it becomes obvious that if I am ready for more, perhaps I should go ‘get ready’.
My online life has been put to bed. But I feel totally awake. And ready.
Brandon wrote a splendid article about his interpretation of being a Human Arrow. Please check it out, and share it. http://www.humanarrow.org/#/on-point/